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Though distance doesn’t matter…..
I really want U to stay….
Since U always there to turn my day brighter…

Love Much,
Ur Fiancee

Lately I was thinking bout a friend of mine. Sorry to know that he’s not in a good feeling this week. Few days ago he woke me up @ midnight and told me bout his uncertain feeling…..quite surprising since few times ago I had such kind of feeling…and I thought it was just a coincidence.

It’s not a long conversation since I was just half conscious…. considering that it’s 12pm something. I was absolutely understood of what he’s dealing with……& I’ve been there too. Well…… it’s a matter of uncertainty….. Life is indeed, full of uncertainty!! Frustrating but unavoidable… It’s just about how we can cope with those kinds of thing, and no one hope to get trapped in it. One may have personal desire as a great achievement in their life…while on the other hand, world is not on their side….

Knowing that he’s very discouraged, I was just trying to get him back on track, as he still has a big assignment to be prepared by next week, which is gonna decide the next path of his career. What a very pressing days…

I really wanna give some supports though I know he’s gonna make it.. I really wanna give some encouragement to pass those tough times.. But for this week, keep focusing on your Big Day!! And soon after you pass it….. we’ll have a time to share bout those things…. and I’ll be listening…..as your very good friend…

When The Goin’ Gets Tough…… The Tough Gets Goin’….

PS. Good Luck 4 Your Final Presentation!! Surely You’ll Do Great!!! ;D

Rasa percaya adalah modal awal setiap individu untuk memulai, membangun, memotivasi, dan mempertahankan sesuatu… apapun itu.

Kita akan cenderung lebih termotivasi untuk mencapai suatu hal jika kita percaya bahwa hal itu bisa terwujud. We can even make it beyond expectation!!

Terkadang seseorang dapat mempercayai orang lain jika orang tersebut menunjukkan dan membuktikan bahwa ia dapat dipercaya. Not only by words.

Rasa percaya itu tumbuh dengan sendirinya, dari apa yang kita lihat dan kita rasakan. Rasa percaya tidak dapat dibeli ataupun dipaksakan, karena itu tidak akan membuatnya cukup untuk bertahan.

And faith is not just about common sense….. Karena suatu kepercayaan dan opini akan berubah jika common sense itu sendiri juga berubah. And it’s not a conviction at all. Faith is something beyond those things. Dan bahkan untuk hal-hal kecilpun kita akan selalu membutuhkan rasa percaya.

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saatnya kita sulit untuk merasa percaya dengan seseorang atau sesuatu….. no matter how hard we try…. and there must be a reason for being so. Somehow, reason for not believing someone or something can be defeated by a proof, and it must be real, visible, and strong enough to change someone’s thought. Coz proof is just gonna be meaningless if it’s showed only by words.

Sebagai individu kita akan selalu berusaha untuk bisa mempercayai orang lain, dan mempertahankan kepercayaan itu. Namun ketakutan yang ada adalah jika apa yang kita percaya ternyata salah atau tidak seperti yang kita harapkan…… It’s kinda unpleasant feeling.

Mungkin benar jika ada orang yang sulit mempercayai seseorang ataupun sesuatu karena ia pernah kecewa… atau melihat kenyataan yang tidak sesuai dengan harapan… atau yang ia percayai ternyata hanya sebatas common sense… atau bahkan cuma rasa tidak percaya yang tidak beralasan… itu semua mungkin terjadi….

Hal itu mungkin juga merupakan bentuk dari self defense, atau usaha seseorang untuk menghindari kekecewaan. Bisa juga karena memang dibutuhkan bukti bahwa hal itu bukan sekedar common sense, sehingga benar-benar layak untuk dipercaya. Somehow faith could grow by process… and it takes time…

Dan ketidakpercayaan itu juga mungkin berubah jika sesuatu itu mampu bertahan untuk membuat orang cukup yakin tentangnya…. Atau jika seseorang mampu membuktikan bahwa dirinya cukup reliable bagi orang lain… Not only by Words…

For those who has been a faithful one… Just keep it that way..

Dearest friends & colleagues,

It has been a memorable 1 1/2 years in EY, and eventually with deep regret i have to come up with such a tough decision that i have to pursue the next step of my professional challenges outside the firm. Working with u all great people has been truly an honor for me. I have been priviledged to have been known all of u. And it’s been remarkable experience toward my learning skills, my professionalism and career enhancement through challenging engagement with incredible colleagues.

So please allow me to express my sincere appreciation and deepest gratitude to my senior whom I look up to: Mb. Ida (thanks for all guidance & patience), Mb. Nares (My pleasure to work & chat with u), Celi (thanks for the big understanding and all great lessons), Rezna ( I know we can always count on u!!), Roberto ( thanks fore those wise advices), Suzy, Olive (Gonna miss all the laughter), Sabrina ( a million thanks for taking good care of me, u’re my best counselor, ever!!), Mas Adji, Mas Mulia, Mb. Siska, and Mas Taufik.

My outmost thanks to all of my fabulous teammates at Telkomsel, Siemens, Hero, & BJ Services projects: Anggra ( u’re just a building away… i’ll keep an eye, dear…), Ivon (u’re really doing great!!!), Danang (thanks for sharing the laughter), Rahma (do not ever burn any other thing…), Tesa (surely u can make it!!), Anna (gonna miss ur tummy), Vera Sinaga, Vera Nyla, Hendrian (u’re the last ma standing, chucky…..), Putra (Keep up the good work!!), Fira, Chastina (don’t blink to clients anymore!!), Dyah, Mega, Reni, Richard, Odink, Rudy, Lia, Irma, Isak, Farid, Desy, Arief, Yanti, Alam, Fery, Ari, Delmartin, Paul, Putri, Fida, Pauline, & many other BRS big families. Thanks for all the joy and spirits…

Further, i would also like to apologize for any inconvenience i caused that might hurt u whatsoever. There has never been any deliberate intention across my heart in doing so.

I definitely will always treasure my time with u all and hope we can keep the friendship fragrant as our path may cross once again in the future. Do keep in touch as i always look forward to see u around.

Best Regards,

Fia

This last few months have been a stressful moment at the office… many people were resigned, even some of my teammates!! Either got better offering or pursue other professional challenges, they decided to take resignation. It’s quite hard for me to loose such kind of great colleagues like them….. (Swear…. It’s not b’coz I haven’t got the opportunity to do so!! hehe…..I wish i’m not gonna be the last man standing!!! hiahahaa….). I do proud of them who already got even higher achievement, as they really deserved.

A friend of mine said that getting a better job is kinda continues business process, and I do admit it. Priority is always different for each person as the have their own personal preference. One may pursue a higher achievement through the career advancement.  And one may choose a simple life with simple job (as they might have other priority besides career).

I personally think that opportunity is made….. Not given!! Hence we have to move on to build credential and create the opportunity itself, by getting career advancement or jumping to other company with a more prospective position. And I congratulate them who have made it…..successfully!!

I just wanna say that "YOUR presence really means a lot!! (especially for me)"

For Leksa, Wina, Dhita, Sani, Meta, and many other BRS rocker……..

Keep voting for “Work, Life, & Love Balance”!!!!!

Love u all ;D

Last week, friends of my batch (from SIF’02 fellowship) were managed to meet up @ Olala Café Sarinah, just to have a cup of coffee and overnight chats. Though it was raining so hard, but our willingness can beat the rain!! Hehe…

And we could make it @ 9pm, eventually!! There were 6 of us. Dewi, nina, riza, rahmat, nanang & me. Too bad that Agnes & Joy couldn’t make it, we miss u already!!

After got a cup of coffee to warm up the atmosphere, we started with trivial jokes bout riza that has been expertise for product knowledge of his beloved company, and his new position as pak Lurah at the MT community for his batch. I think he really enjoy it, as he make a worth compensation for his job!! Hehe…. I wish to b so… ;p

Followed by dewi’s pers conference, announcing her new status which already be “in a deep relationship” with a guy she met @ Aceh last month. Wow… “accidentally in love” did happen!!! We’re Happy for U, dear!!

I was really excited especially for her story bout Aceh (beside her new Acehnese boyfriend of course!! hehe..), as she has spent two months there for a media relation project. Through the story I could get a bit more outlook bout Aceh real condition nowdays, a year after Tsunami. I heard bout the mega project of rebuilding Aceh and thought of its impact to the remaining pure culture and community structure of the great Aceh.

I hope the governments & all of those NGOs who have been involved in those big projects are purely do it for social reason, though some or even many of them are “seem” not to be that way. Business thing is always be part of them, but…. Who am I to judge?!

It was getting crowded as midnight come, then we decided to go to dewi’s house to stay overnight…, continue the chat bout experience & thoughts and watched film as usual. But then what…… I was slept away just one moment after we got there!! Hehe…. That’s obviously me…. ;p

I thought morning came so fast. I wasn’t woken up by my cell phone alarm, and it means so late!!!!

We’re having nasi uduk for breakfast, and it was taste so good (regardless that it’s free!! hehe…). Dewi’s mom does a good cook, no wonder dewi grows well….hihiii….. no offense plizz… ;p

Haven’t felt enough for the overnight chat, we continued our story after breakfast. So curious to hear bout the story & many topics of discussion, from nanang’s thought bout formation of a country and money factor in it, Quraish Shihab’s thematic translation of AlQurAn, until dewi’s critic for Dian Sastro (hehe…. u forgot how young she is! ;p ), and our appreciation to the compassionate Glenn Fredly who has turn the broken heart into a great inspiration (through his successful album)!! Yup, we’re totally agreed with dewi, others might have been pessimist after hurt by love, but Glenn could turn it into a large number of money. Hihiii….I think the brokenhearted guys should follow his way   Life must go on!!

Well, it was a nice moment to share. Can’t believe that we could still rock the day as we used to be!! And hope it will last…

See u guys on our next overnight chats!!

Ngobrol ama kalian emang gak ada matinya!!! ;D

Luv

Well…. life is a matter of choices…

2005 has just gone.. I’ve got many ups & downs through the year!! There must b lots of experience & new things i’ve got during the year. Make new friends, accomplish new projects, deal with tough works & clients, struggle badly to get all things done within the timeline, maintain good relationship with people around, & keep learning something new. I must thank God 4 all those things…

People just come & go….. They took their own way as they want. Though sometimes we have to sacrifice other things to achieve the better one. Well, honestly i hate to choose!! even for the trivial…

I was thinking that God must made it all complicated to teach us how to deal with things…how to manage our own life…& how to set priority, as we might not be able to get it all. yup, humans are typical…never satisfied for everything they had. But look on the bright side…. we might not get new experience if we’re not that curious, we might not achieve many great accomplishments if we’re not that ambitious (i mean…in a good way..). The thing is… we’re frequently just focused on every higher expectations which might not be a "good one" for others or our environment, forgot to look down & give some attentions to our social life. phew!! it’s kinda hard…

I personally a bit regret for not having much time spent with families & even communities… due to works!! I just kinda feel guilty to my beloved family…I know, they wish i could stay.. Being apart from them is not that easy. Coz it has been my responsibility to take care of them, & give as much attention as i can.

But sometimes we have to be able to cooperate with any circumstances. I’m just a beginner in this bloody capitalist world!! Wish i have my own company!!(haha…. Wishful thinking is somehow good, isn’t it?!) Amiiiiiinnnn….. ;D

I do believe that every single effort can make a difference eventhough it’s not a big one, we just have to make it true! We are responsible for our own choices, if we can’t built our own business yet, then we can contribute something good to the corporation instead…without leaving our own life….whout abandoning our society… & keep trying to build a good mindset of "corporation" instead of those damn capitalist things…

Personal Evaluation might be a good way to make a self improvement, while Spirit is gonna be a "must have" attribute to turn expectations into something visible. And Emotional as well as spiritual quotions are something important to be involved for setting any goals & expectations..

May we have a great spirit to achieve our resolutions!! as I still wish to be the better me

HappY New Year to all dearest friends…..

May we always be blessed & loved …

May we always keep calm & sincere…

May we always grow wiser & humble …

May we always have enough courage to face the future…

"Enjoy Little things in life….. for one day u may look back and realize they were the big things!!!!"

First Line on My Blog…

Supposed to b the first story….but it’s not..

Supposed to b the first picture…. but it’s not..

Supposed to b the first impression…. but it’s not..

Coz the stories i had.. were started long time before..

Coz the pictures i made.. were taken on each memorable moment before..

And the impression of a person.. was embedded on people’s heart years before..

This blog is just a line… of my thought…

And dedicated to my friends…

Coz days.. are seem to b precious to share…