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With all thankfulness I am grateful for Gavin, my dearly loved son…

Amazingly he’s been growing so fast…reasonable as it may seem…since his appetite is quite good. Eventually he could get 6 months exclusive breastfeeding, despite the fact that I have to take a few days leave for catching up the milk stock…hahaaaa….

Feeling of excitement comes when U can do the best for ur baby… although for this matter I wouldn’t say that I have become a good mom (means ideal one) for my son, since I do admit that I am an officer…means I have to leave my son at 7 to 5 every weekdays for work….well, another side of my days…

Yup…been dreaming for that time when I can spend my whole day with family…without withdrawing my salary payment evidently…hahaa…

Even so, I still believe that I could do my best for keeping my child grow up well…that’s become a commitment. Office hour shouldn’t restrict me to watch over him… that’s why I really hope there would be a baby day care at my office. Should have been made!!

Gavin seemed so excited while having his first food, milk porridge, as he finished it within a minute…hahaa… I was overjoyed..

Kinda blissful if I can feed him everyday…watch him sleep & play all day long….How I wish… Nevertheless, I still wanna say that I am a “full time mother” as well as a “part time officer” on the other hand…

happy 1^st half B’daY my dearest son….May U always have a wonderful and joyful times ahead with us…. Keep ur days bright up with laughter…

Devoted to U,

mom

Udah tiga bulan usia Gavin (my son)… Alhamdulillah sampe sekarang dia sehat, bisa minum asi yg cukup..dan semoga bisa tetep dapet asi eksklusif sampe at least usia 6bln.

Buat ibu2 yg ngantor, mostly akan menghadapi konsekuensi dimana harus menyisihkan waktu buat provide asi. As for me, sampe skg tiap hari at least 4 kali gw harus mompa asi demi ngejar setoran ke Gavin…no matter how busy i am (halahh… se-sibuk apa siy kantor gw??!!) ;p

Funny feeling comes whenever pumping…hahaaa…. Berasa kayak sapi perah… ;D

Belom lagi suara pompa asi elektrik yg berisik di tengah2 ruang kerja…RRRrrrrrrrr…..bunyinya kayak vibrator!!! hwahahaa….. najong!!

Ampe suka dibilangma org2 “kalo mesinnya rusak & butuh bantuan bilang aja yaa..” hehehh..u wish!!!

Tapi mo gimana lagi… kata si meta, demi Gavin I shall do whatever it takes… I mean..I have to…

Belakangan mulai kuatir kalo stok asi gw berkurang sejak gw masuk kantor…though it’s normally happen..

Fortunately temen2 selalu ngingetin kalo banyak nggaknya asi itu tergantung ama cukupnya makan, istirahat, & yg paling penting ga boleh stress!!!

Dan gw udah buktiin kalo stress itu significantly influenced ke produksi asi… gile… kalo lg bete pasti berkurang drastis…semakin paniK…Semakin dikitlah produksinya…Kan kasian Gavin..

Gw kapok deh … ga mo kyk gitu lg… Sebisa mungkin keep myself in a good mood dgn… belanja2 & cuci mata…hahaaa…bo’ong ding!! ;p

Setelah ngobrol2 ma sesama ibu2 sapi…gw baru sadar ternyata effort gw buat keep sustaining asi gw tu masih kurang banget dibanding mereka…si shanty tu ampe heboh bgtt…dari makan sayur katuk 2x sehari, minum susu kedelai, minum vitamin asi, minum yakult, minum kacang ijo, ampe makan duren jg dia jabanin…hahaaa….emang doyan kaleee…

Yaaa…namanya jg ikhtiar…

Jd sebagai implementasi dr niat gw “whatever it takes” … now I am trying hard to do so..

Minum susu kedelai…okelah….mayan enak jg…

Minum kacang ijo….mmm…msh kadang2 ;p

Makan sayur katuk…. kok belakangan mulai eneg yaa…..gile…tiap harreee bo’!!! huekss…

Makan pil/vitamin asi…yg ini belom…ada yg bilang mendingan makan yg alami aja..jgn obat2an..

Byk istirahat…so pasti!!!!Malah kalo nidurin Gavin yg tidur gw duluan…hwaahaa…

Menghindari stress… yg ini enaknya kalo ga mikir kerjaan & mslh laennya …haha… mana mungkeeennn…

Padahal yg plg signifikan itu dr faktor psikis…

Well… ternyata aplikasi ”Whatever it takes” itu gak gampang yaa… byk cobaannya…

Tapi no matter what…. Harus Tetap Semangaattttt….. Demi Gavin!!!

No Stress..No Stress… Good Mood pls come…

Weekend…Weekend… Good Mood pls come…

Shopping…Shopping…. Good Mood pls come…

Year End Sale… Year End Sale… Good Mood pls come… ;p

PS. Tulisan di blog gw sekarang kyk emak2 beneran yeee….hwahaaaa….

It feels so magnificent to know that you’re gonna have a baby… I believe
every woman does. For we now realize that life is so meaningful with the
existence of family.

I do admit that during my 4 months pregnancy it’s been filled with many
ups and downs. Dizzy and tummy ache every morning and sooo many restriction for
meals, vitamins to be consumed everyday, and rules for not playing bowling
anymore…bla..bla..blu..so on..

I can cope with all those unpleasant things during pregnancy and avoid
any conflicts or any other thing that might cause any harms to my baby. The
upmost difficult thing is to control emotion. I try my best effort for not
having a high temper or even a temporary bad mood. Try not to have a crash even
when someone make me down or disappoint me, and keep hoping that later these
won’t happen anymore.. God will show me whom I could trust and whom I
couldn’t.. nevertheless, the joy of motherhood would erase all those feeling…

 
Above all, it’s worth all the sacrifice since I know that I’m gonna give
birth to my beloved baby, half of my life…

Hari ini gw tiba-tiba inget ma jaman2
fellowship dulu, mungkin krn udh kangen bgt & pengen ktemuan pas alumni
conference di S’pore kmaren tapi ga kesampean kali ya… hikss..

Ada hal yg gw inget bgt ampe skg, waktu itu ada
satu game unik yg dibikin temen2 jaman fellowship dulu….. we called it ”Angel
& Mortal”. Maennya simple bgt… Semua fellows (57 org) hrs ngambil undian yg
isinya nama org yg akan jadi Mortal qta…& org yg ngambil itu akan jadi
Angel-nya. Tugas seorang Angel adalah berusaha sebaik mungkin dgn tulus ikhlas
dan kesadaran hati memberi some more attentions (or affections??? Kikikikk )
sama Mortal-nya. Jadi tiap fellow akan punya Angel yg akan care ma
dia…sekaligus punya Mortal yg harus dia sayang..cieee…bahasanya bok!! ;p Tapi
qta ga boleh ngasi tau Mortal masing2 kalo qta itu Angel-nya. Biar penasaran gituuuuu…. Kalo sampe ngasi tau
or bocorin info….konsekuensinya sadis bgt…ga sebanding ma
infonya….Terdakwa bakalan dibunuh lgs ma Shereen the Queen (Initiator
sekaligus algojo buat game ini).

Waktu itu susah bgt buat nebak siapa yg jd ”Angel” gw…secara semua org
kayaknya baikaaaannnn bgt. Si Charry yg dengan senang hati nemenin gw bolos
kuliah (hehe… ini mah emang doyan!!), Nina yg sering masak buat rame2, Raz yg
sering ngajakin hang out bareng ampe pagi di NUH (hihi….secara gw kebo!!),
Lui yg ngasi kaos kaki biru lucu, Saiful yg sering bela-belain bangun pagi demi
nemenin gw basket & ngasi biskuit Hello Panda kesukaan gw tiap hari, Dewi
yg selalu care ma tmn2nya, & Riza yg udah byk bgt kebaikannya tapi sering
gw bales pake aer tuba…kekekee..pisss!!! (I miss u by the way, qta udh berapa bln ga maen bareng lg)

 
Sbenernya gw sempet curiga ma Lui (Sohib gw dari Laos yg kamarnya pas di
sebelah kiri kamar gw) secara dia sering bgt ngasi gw makanan, coklat, mainan,
dll…. Bilangnya siy itu titipan dari ”Angel” gw, tapi dia ga bilang siapa….

Well…kali aja dia bo’ong kalo itu dari Angel gw, sapa tau itu emang dari
dia sendiri…which means dialah Angel gw. Bisa aja toh..(positive curigation
itu legal, hehe…).

Sampe akhir fellowship (batas waktu game over) gw blom tau juga siapa Angel
gw…. penasaran jg!!! Abisnya byk tmn2 yg udh tau or bisa nebak siapa
Angelnya, mgkn obvious karena sering bgt ngasi surprise or presents!! Tapi
gw blom ada clue jg niy…. Senseless….

When the fellowship was about to
end (hiks…sedih lg niy…) gw menyimpulkan bahwa whoever my Angel is… He must be
a busy guy….secara dia jarang bgt nongolin batang hidungnya….kalo ngasi hadiah
pasti nitip ke orang….ga pernah ada effort (biar seru) ngumpet2 naroh hadiah or
surprise di depan kamar gw or ngapaiiinn gitu….pasti ga mo repot!! ;p

Hari pengumuman pun tiba…..
waktu itu di acara ASEAN Nite, of which I was one of the committee, qta siap2
mendengarkan pengakuan dr masing2 Angel yg bakal nyebutin siapa Mortalnya…..&
Ternyata sodara-sodaraaaaaa………. The Mysterious Guy is…. Si JoeL!!!!!! Ya….JoeL!! Cowok Singaporean ganteng
dokter muda ituh….. pantesan aja dia ga pernah nongol…lha wong ank kedokteran
(NUS pula!!) sibuknya setengah mamprut!! Belajar inilah…Assignment itulahh..pasien
ini itulah..hehe…. Eventually i knew the reason… ;p

As his Mortal I was sooo…… Grateful…..
& really appreciate for all he had done 4 me…

Yup…4 all those gentle messages,
gifts, chocolates, & many other presents that makes me feel so Lucky ……;p I
really Thank You…

& 4 Lui…. I’m still ur Mortal as well…. as
nice as can be…no one would replace

That was great memorable times to
experience everything with U guys… such meaningful days to remember….

Hope U guys are still doing great
wherever U are Now…
Luv Ya All…..

Bulan ini rasanya capeeeek bgt…prepare macem-macem buat pindahan. InsyaAllah akhir bln ini udah nempatin rumah kontrakan (baca: Penthouse Petak!! Hahaa…) di Rasamala (pancoran), it means gw & hubby hrs nyiapin segala macem tetek bengek & every detail things seputar household.

Well… quite exhausting but I do enjoy it…..

Akhirnya gw ngerasain jg jadi housewife yg hrs manage urusan domestik RT yg mungkin buat housewife baru kayak gw gini msh rada2 binun…hehe…maklum…secara dulu selalu ada nyokap gw yg jago urusan beginian…..sekarang hrs gw ma hubby sendiri yg belajar manage rmh while keeping office works done in time. Tapi Alhamdulillah byk bgt yg bantuin qta, dr mulai ortu, sodara, temen2… byk jg yg ngasi input ini itu… which really helpful.

Dulu waktu msh ingusan sempet mimpi pengen tinggal di rumah kecil di pinggiran Helsinki pas lg winter… trus wiken santai2 di rumah ajah nonton film sambil makan potatoes ma hot chocolate di sofa depan perapian….huahahahaaaa… winter dari HongKong??!! Berasa langit & bumi kalo dibanding ma Pancoran kaleee… ;p

Ternyata ngisi rumah itu ga sekedar concern ma gimana milih tv, ac & elektronik laennya…ato detail apa yg looks nice & comfortable buat ngisi ruang….tapi ampe barang2 yg mikroskopis kayak saringan teh, bukaan botol, & obeng must be counted in, demi memenuhi household rule standard compliance!! ;p

(temennya bawang…. Cabe deeehhhh!!!!)

Waktu blm merit & msh kos di kemang ama mama Justin (my dearest ex roommate), gw berasa kayak homeless yg nebeng ngekos…secara gw masuk cuma modal dengkul…soalnya Justin udh punya barang2 buat hidup ngekos yg super komplit.. dari tipi gede, dispenser ampe pedicure kit buat ngilangin kapalan!! Hahaa…. ;D

Jadi gw ga pusing mikirin beli ini beli itu…..blom lagi kalo pindahan musti angkut2 gila…

Hehe…. tapi sekarang gw ngerasain jg ngurus rumah sendiri… yg surely lbh gede dari kamar kos…meskipun tetep berskala ”petak”. Just make sure the guest doesn’t have claustrophobia!! hehe…. Ga kebayang kalo pertama kali ngontrak di rmh yg gede…pasti mabok ngurusnya, secara dobel profesi gini… ;p

Yaaahhh…. doain aja semoga semuanya beres & langsung ilang capeknya once we stay together in our new tiny sweetie home. Trus buat yg mo nyumbang kulkas, mesin cuci, sofa, ato barang2 yg laen jangan sungkan2 loh…. that would be our pleasure….hueheheheee…Ngarep!! ;D

For me, it’s been a privilege to experience this kind of thing, as I still trying to learn much more to be a good housewife beside a civil servant ;p

Above all, I do feel so lucky to have my hubby as a very very best friend for getting through all these times … Shall we bond a great teamwork, I’ll be a loyal devoted partner for now & beyond…

I‘ve been looking forward for this fasting month, definitely bcoz di bulan puasa ini adalah kesempatan kita untuk menabung amal baik sebanyak-banyaknya secara qta diberi fasilitas dan bonus pahala yg berlipat-lipat.

Though I’m still not being able to spend the whole month with my hubby & family (as I truly want to), it wouldn’t cut my passion to do my best as much as can be…

Semoga org2 tersayang jg selalu ngingetin gw untuk tetep “full battery” buat rajin ibadah di bulan puasa ini…dan seterusnya juga….

Kayaknya emang bulan puasa itu bisa menciptakan atmosfer yg beda buat qta… .byk bgt bedanya.

Ga usah yg jauh2 deehh…. Salah satu hal positif di bulan puasa yg sangat gw rasain benefitnya yaitu…….Gw ga lagi terpaksa jadi perokok pasif!!!! Karena puasa means Gatz harus meninggalkan “Dewa Sembilan Senti” nya itu dengan ikhlas!! At least dr pagi ampe buka puasa dia ga bisa ngrokok sembarangan di depan istrinya yg baik dan tak berdosa ini…..hihiiiiii….huahaaahaaaaa….Puas deh!!!

Kalo aja selama bulan puasa ini dia bisa nahan untuk ga ngerokok sama sekali (krn alasan ”mengurangi frekuensi” itu udh pasaran sekaleee), mungkin seterusnya juga bisa menghentikan kebiasaan merokok yg sebenernya useless, & just a waste of money. Mendingan duidnya buat belanja lebaran dengan niat menggerakkan sektor riil negara ini….halaahhh…mulai basi & ngelantur jadinya..hehehhh ;p Kamsudnya mending duid itu dipake buat some more useful spending, sayaaangg…

Stop consuming cigarette & stay away from those deathly things…. as u’ve promised to go along with me…ampe kakek nenek… Hence i need u to keep healthy, my beloved hubby…

Weekend lalu gw ma gatz (the most "gokil" yet lovely hubby alive) nonton Cintapuccino…”film yg cemen!!” kata gatz, hehe… a bit underestimating karya Rudi Sujarwo :p

Film itu menurut gw msh STD, buat sekelas film drama abg, yaa.. so so laahh.. but something make me wondering is…..why people (at least some friends of mine) byk yg ngobrolin film itu di blognya… it’s tickling me anyway..

Well, dari segi cerita siy ga terlalu asing buat segmen market tennagers. Dan secara novelnya udah lama beredar (katanya laris pula), jadi consequently udh byk yg tau skenarionya.

Satu hal klise yang tetep bikin gw ketawa adalah cerita klasik soal cowok idola wkt sma, which is sometimes out of mind ;p  yaahh…secara wkt sma msh puber2nya, msh norak2nya ngecengin cowok walaupun ga bisa berkutik or ngomong wkt ktemu or sekedar papas an… Not even a word!! Haha…. Norak bgt ya!! (bwt yg ngerasa dilarang ngetawain gw!!!) ;p

Tapi semua itu ada masanya…. Everybody did..

Cuma hal yg bikin gw protes adalah ending yg buat gw sangat menyebalkan!!! Despite the sensibility, it doesn’t make any sense kalo si Rahmi (Sissy Pricilia) itu tiba2 changed her mind on the last day prior to her marriage…kinda insane!!

The thing is not merely about “choosing which one better”…or krn cowok itu udh jd obsesi qta, palagi sejak sma..jaman monyet blom bisa pake remote alias jadoel bgt!!! Apalagi kalo versi di film ini, tipikal si Raka itu (her fiancee) ga ada celanya (Aditya Herpavi getoh.. ;p ), keluarga dah ok, moreover…they’re engaged…and get married soon to be!!

Well…mungkin byk yg beropini beda, tapi menurut gw… kalo msh dating doank …or mgkn msh ada constrain masalah keluarga yg blm sreg, or krn complicated different world which u might not be able to enter (haha…terribly been there)… then.. msh bolehlah considering another better one… malah seharusnya gitu…sampe qta yakin mana yg terbaik bwt qta & keluarga (sbg bagian terdekat dr hidup qta).

But in this case (dlm film abg ini), it seems unfair that she eventually choose the guy who’s just appeared out of nowhere all of a sudden, and try to get attached into her life for the sake of Love!!! Yaelaaahhhh….india bgttt!!! Basi alias mambu!! Then where have u been??? kemane aje baangg???

Tapi anehnya (at least menurut gw aneh & bego, mnrt org laen mgkn beda..) si Rahmi jd bingung (well…bingung itu msh wajar siy..) trus nyerah aja wkt Raka pergi (yg ini bego bgt), trus puter haluan dan ngejar si bruneian itu (I know he’s Indonesian ;p )..eh, maksudnya si Nimo (mgkn daripada ga dpt dua2nya!!hahaa). Udh gitu… keluarganya dgn lempeng.com mau nerima si bruneian gondrong itu (yang kata Gatz kayak hombrenk)…aneh bin weird!! hahaa…norak deh.

Well, mgkn krn ini film abg jd dianggap wajar kalo lebih mengedepankan feeling daripada logic. Kagak make sense at all… Tapi kalo mo dibikin gitu hrsnya si Nimo itu yg maen lbh keren drpd dia dunk!! Ya… at least sekelas Orlando Bloom getoh… kekekekkk..comment-nya jd subjektip niy.. ;p

Somehow gw msh setuju ama Raka yg milih pergi, tapi kalo versi gw perginya ga pake acara mellow or merana gituu….coz it’s worthless for staying with someone who has no commitment (I mean commitment for marriage, not only casual date or something).

Kalo kata si Riza (temen gw sejak jaman jadoel jg) “There’re more than 6 billion people in this world, so there always be someone better out there…but one thing make us stay is Commitment!!” (hehe…yakin lo za?!!)

Kalo kata Anggra dulu, “Just follow ur heart”…hehe…maksud lo nggra??!!?? But I did it anyway ;p

Main point is…. When we decide who’s gonna be ‘the one”, make sure we’ve left every other thing behind…(as I learnt to be so for more than 4 years). And don’t ever make any commitment for engagement or even marriage if u haven’t made up ur mind…(haha… sbg org yg dulu bermasalah dgn yg namanya ‘certainty’ ;p ).. That’s the foremost obligation for maintaining a long life relationship.

So I’d love to recommend u: Mendingan nonton film yg lbh bermutu kyk Lord of War or Bourne Ultimatum ajahh..hahahahahaa ;D Jaka Sembung Naek Ojek…Kagak Nyambung Jek!!

For my dearest friends…Make up ur mind and get married immediately!! (I know some of u are soon to be!!)

It feels so wonderful having “other half” with u all the way through the days.. And keep the fire of love & commitment burning

Bwt yg sesama PCPM….siapin 125 jeti dulu (buat tebusan krn muhrim, hehe…),

Bwt yg msh bingung… reconsider & jgn sampe kejadian kyk film abg itu…

& bwt riza geloo, decide ur nationality 1^st before considering any other thing!!! That’s ur ultimate point in ur life actually!! Hahaaaa ;D

As indeed become my typical that I’m not instantly overwhelmed with a new thing, now I’m trying hard to get into the habit of my new environment. It’s sometimes make me feel like having an idle aptitude (I don’t say that It means under worked :p ) while on the other hand I wanna do further, or I can do better..

In contrast, I don’t wanna assumed that consequently It’s somewhat overpaid …

I keep thinking once in a while that is this merely a matter of system outcome or just a deep covered habit carried from a very long forerunner of this society which already created a strong dominant atmosphere so that freshmen are not even be able to explore a wider field to accomplish their curiousity or just to feed the brain?!? (well… I think that’s too dramatic!!)

But look on the front building!!!! They might do another way…or completely different way!! (I won’t say that it’s because they go home later than I do, hehee…). Just wondering why it become so puzzling when you feel like idle you wanna get busier, and when you do you’ll think that it’s over worked.

Well, I just get bored currently… and need something impressive!!!

This month is gonna be the last month of my training period. Everyone seems so excited and really look forward to have the commencement of their career here, one of the most conservative institutions in my…’exceptional’ country (intentionally I used ‘exceptional’ instead of ‘weird’!! hahaa). Others may say that this is such a blessing, and I do admit it. Nevertheless, there’s no such thing as perfect world…. I have to cope with the fact that my next placement is gotta be here, in Jakarta …which means apart from my beloved family.

            Well…God’s plan and ours might be the same, almost the same, or totally diverse. Yet, God’s plan must be the right one…. And to get the best require a good willingness, big effort, persistence and prays. I won’t regret anything since it’s been my decision, and part of my life journey. All I need is just a support and prays from my beloved ones to keep me going on track and pursue a better achievement… and yet, family would always come first…

a million thanx to my other half who always be my fortitude…

my blog…. hasnt been updated for age…

I’ve spent my last two months for BI training in kemang…..stay in a small developing suburb of the hurly burly Jakarta … got many excitements though…
tight schedule…some nerd kind of trainers…frustating materials…exam every week…no breakfast but milo every morning…lack of sleep but in class ;p ….small hot bedroom with no aircon….and further fueled by those freakin reptils in room…. PERFECT!!!! feels like….never better before…..
well…..fortunately i haf such an insane roomate whom i always count on!! (Justin…Luv U Much!!hihii….)
i fall asleep when she’s busy with those thick hand out & 96.87 GB of power point presentation materials…..such an ironic scene… ;)   

One thing i always look 4ward everyday is WEEKEND!!!! since i can spend times right beside my beloved one….though it takes like 7 hours (or even more) travelling to the other side of this Jupiter to get him closer….i should be nominated as the so called "Mudik-ers of the century"!!!! ;D
Really wish that i’s not gonna last for any longer time….i wanna be an ordinary family woman with an extraordinary life…. since it feels so wonderful when i’m with him…undeniable!!

To my beloved hubby…U know i always try my best for achieving work, life & love balance…. but beyond all those things….U’re my precious…

Miss U terribly…